Author: asitisnow

It is not easy or even possible to trust that we are constantly being taken care of. With the task of making ends meet, and the tussle of making a living each day in environments that may be unfavorable, not to mention hostile, to see the connection of trust and cared for is out of the mind’s equation. It is like convincing someone in the midst of an empty pocket, money will naturally flow into it the very moment one is to trust. As hard as it is to believe such airy-fairy tale, the truth is that, that is what it takes.

Oblivious to our own conditioning, our inability to trust is the effect of our experiences. Not trusting is to plant doubt in our psyche and what doubt really does is to cast our unsurety to reality. In other words, our experience of unsurety of money coming into our lives is the result of our unsure state of mind. Consider that it is the mind that creates the world instead of the other way round. It is simply illogical to convince oneself that the world is creating the mind as that would have put you as the observed instead of the observer. Of course, when you are awakened, the game switches role, having the “you” being observed, together with the world. But so long as you are around in this thingy call the “mind”, you are constantly the observer of the world; hence you are the cause and the world, the effect.

Thus if you wish to see money flowing into your life without an iota of doubt in it, you have to first look into your ideas that are not in consistent with trust. The outer world is merely a projection of what is in the inner world. If you feel superior over others, a false state that hides your inferiority, you only see inferiority in others – what you see is exactly what you are experiencing in the abyss of the mind, all others are merely false façade that you create to hide what is truly here, in the mind.

So what is given to you is exactly what you are – isn’t that a fair game of consistency that “all has been taken care of”, by you? Whether it is a lousy career, a boring relationship, an uneventful life, everything is perfectly as it is, an exact mirror of what you have offered, from within.

Do you not see how the mind works? Do you not see what you intent is what you get? Do you not see the views running in your system are creating an exact 100% replica of what reality is to you? Whence is then true reality except a fleeting belief system that you have bought into without questioning its validity? Bondage lies in ignorance of what is not understood.

To quote a profound statement made by Jesus – If you bring forth what is within you, what you have will save you. If you do not have that within you, what you do not have within you will kill you. So what is it that you have and do not have? Wisdom. If you do not understand how the mind works, ignorance is gonna work you out, killing you in the process; yet nothing is lost, as you can never die except continuously being led by ignorance until you finally wake up from it. That is the way it is, including yours faithfully, without exemption.

“What you give is what you get” – peanuts will be return with peanuts, ignorance with ignorance, wisdom with wisdom…

lets not talk about tomorrow
or even yesterday
as much on our plate is
constantly in the now

lets not talk about later
or even awhile ago
as much in our space
is what is already here
now

yet the now is giving way
to another now
endlessly
seamlessly
forgetting for a moment
how transient now is

if past has already gone
and future has yet to arise
and now
sigh…
is constantly dying
what is left of me
except
a ghost
of bubbles
arising to die?

what am I here for
I wonder…
in the midst of transiency
uncontrollable
and constant exhaustion
of experiences
i could not even call mine
and yet
experience I have to
not a moment
past
without it.

woeful indeed
to be such
of nobody’s land
of unseen territory
of endless journey
seeing no end to it

to awaken is bliss.
beyond…

Mind experiences are liken to dream state, replaying itself of what have occurred, albeit differently. Conditioned by numerous past factors, each moment of experience are byproducts of what has been gathered by the mind, through its veil of views, perceptions, feelings and consciousness. Even in the now, the way I type out this entry and the way you read it now, are all conditioned by the past and yet also conditioning the way I view, perceive and feel in the future – for my present state determines what comes up next.

In short, the past becomes what I am now and what I am now becomes the future. The now encapsulates the past and future. In linear dimension, we would have gathered and understood the statement as the past and future is actually in the now but what is more true is that each now churns out the history of past and future. Yes, even future is a history as it is already determined by the now. The now itself is a molten pot of past and future.

Thus in reality, to say the now is entirely new is incorrect as what is here are merely permutations of the past brought a fresh again, metaphoring the statement same stuff in different packaging. Bad as the news can be, there is nothing new at all in the entire universe, which is the mind. The simile that came to me is the alphabets of A to Z which in different ways of arrangement spell new words and meanings, millions of them, and yet they are merely 26 characters.

Similarly all meanings and experiences of life boils down to the mind aggregates of consciousness, feelings, perception and mental activities and the form is the product of it. So is there any difference in terms of happiness, sadness, jealousy, upset, grief and many more emotions and mental states – all the variation of experiences that has never left you and will never leave you, albeit in a different storyline?

Is that the game I wish to play? Or do I really have a choice? Hence, so long as I am not awakened to this dream of replay, I will still be in the dream, not realizing it is a dream. There is nothing wrong in playing the dream – what will be wrong is that I don’t see it as a play and took seriousness in it, entrenching myself deeper into the abyss of the game, which by then I will no longer see it as a game but a reality – a fictitious reality. What a nightmare that can be!

Enlightenment, to my understanding, equates to awakening to the dream found within the mind. And that can only be made possible when one is out of the mind. Out of the mind differs from out of mind where the latter is still in the mind except not knowing himself. Out of the mind is a clear realization of release, of disengagement of mind, of something that the mind can’t imagine. It cannot be expressed or explained except in the experience. Yet it is not experience per se, as experience can only be from the mind. How deep down the rabbit hole do you wish to go?

Resolve the mind, not what is within the mind.