Author: asitisnow

Belief is strange. When you believe you make it real. What was not originally true, becomes true to you, simply because you believed in it. When you don’t believe, it is also a belief, and hence you can never escape from it. And what do you believe? Views and ideas.

You believe you are thin or fat, or skinny, or stupid, or clever, whatsoever. Do they really exist? No, except in ignorance – when you ignore the obvious, that it is simply a meaning you give to things which has no meaning. Like a label, it was done for convenience, for identification and yet the identification becomes real, as real as you become that.

Instead of identification of “woman”,’ for convenience of differentiation, you become woman. Identification makes what is not, is. The whole existence is a joke, of mere identification, and yet identification breeds, creating separations and meanings and hence individuals, objects and meanings are born.

“I”, was merely to identify, an expression of convenience and not as a means to make it real, and yet, and yet, when belief sets in, identification becomes real. From “I”, “I am” exists and “I am” with all its ideas becomes who you are. “Fat” is just an idea, an identification. So when “I am” is placed together with “fat”, with a little belief, hey presto! “I am fat” comes alive!

Belief is merely an act of ignorance, just as realization is an act of wisdom. Realization makes certainty and hence cannot believe. Believe is merely a temporary hold to what doubt is calling to do. Where there is doubt, there can be no certainty. Any act of uncertainty looms ignorance, or ego.

When realization takes on more and more space in the mind, belief and doubt naturally diminishes, weakening the “I” further and what is left a bit is the final frontier – the “I” – the one that makes everything unreal as real. It is belief versus realization, and the more awareness is applied, the more observation is given to this “I” which in due time, through much investigation and understanding, the whole entire “I” is exposed – the veil of illusion lifted by wisdom, showing the true face of “I”, except but an idea.

What a comedy! What a joke! There was nothing in existence since the beginning of time, and hence existence was not even real! Indeed strange how this came to be, from unreal, reality comes to be. It never happened at all, and yet the whole episode of unreal reality took on a dimension of such realness that the world is formed and with it, heaven and hell created, past and future came to be, birth and death existed, together will all its rebirth and suffering. How wonderful this whole setup of illusion is – deluding no one and yet because of “someone” delusion exists.

What to hold on,
what to resist,
as all are merely unreal?

For not seeing this reality
you held
you resisted
and the dream persists.

Indeed a difficult task
to realize
and yet realization
is possible.

Phew!
what a nightmare.

There’s “I”
but no “I am”
and even then
the “I” is not what
I think it is.

The “I”
can’t think
can’t feel
can’t know
but simply an idea
lodged in the mind.

As like any idea
“I” is just another idea
meaningless
devoid of personality
devoid of identity
except, an idea.

No ownership
no possession
no entitlement
no belonging
no self
that exist
but merely an error
a delusion

And yet
and yet
strangely
meaning of self
springs
and the world comes to be

Consciousness knows,
not “I” know
Feeling feels,
not “I” feel
Perception perceive,
not “I” perceive

I, merely
empty
another meaningless idea.

Meditation learning is reversal – reversing what is already in existence. Learning in this sense addresses what is already here instead of creating what is other than here.

The purpose of learning meditation is to undo what has been done, not as literally, but through recognition – hence it is reversal by nature. When one is able to recognize a mistake, at that point one has already got himself released from the mistake, in word to mean correction has occurred, at the mind level. Recognition here is not anything about regret or remorse but simply a realization it was an error in the mind. Recognition is reversal in this meaning.

Whenever a mistake is made, there is a tendency of the mind to give attention to the outcome rather than the process that leads to it. My meditation teacher constantly reminds us that any experience that comes into our space is not at all important than the attitude towards it. What he is to mean is that the experience itself is none of our business, since it is already in existence, but our attitude, which is in the present, is a determining factor for our future.

Back to the example of a mistake – when you recognize a mistake, you can either give attention to the mistake, which has already occurred and probably see yourself wrong in it or, you can be grateful that you have the ability to recognize the mistake. Ignorance cries over split milk, whereas wisdom rejoices in what is learnt from the experience. In other words, ignorance look at the effect, whereas wisdom at the cause.

Ignorance carry the mistake forward by making amends through guilt, having to live with guilt, while wisdom releases the past and naturally transforms due to resolving it through understanding. The latter is a reversal learning, as it reverses what is past by making it correct and hence completing what is in the past and then move on, whereas the former carries the past forward, not resolving it at all, except proliferating it further by constant guilt.

When one recognizes a mistake, one has to give attention to the recognition itself rather than the mistake. The recognition is the cause of undoing the mistake. Without recognition, correction is impossible. Recognition is wisdom at work. Question may arise what about one who has yet to see it as a mistake? Then it is obvious that wisdom has not come in or ignorance is just around covering the truth to be seen. A mistake will not be called a mistake until one recognizes it which already means a correction has been made, in the mind. Without the arising of the correction, a mistake cannot be seen, hence the meaning ignorance – ignoring the obvious.

One may ask further what about justice when the mistake has been done upon another, in term of retribution. Retribution is again, a forward learning as it entails guilt. In truth, justice has been carried out in the mind as every moment of unseen mistake, by itself it already entails much suffering to the beholder. Anything that is against nature is by itself suffering, without needing to impose further suffering. This truth applies at the mind level and what the world does to the person is another issue all together, as again, the world is in constant conflict with the Truth.

The law of nature is just, except man made laws as it addresses the effect rather than the cause. All issues can only be addressed at the cause level if a permanent resolution is to be made.