It is by acknowledging error to myself is truth restored. So long as I don’t see error in my own fabrication, truth is not against me – I am against truth. To take full responsibility of all my experiences is the beginning of unraveling fabrication. Since I am the one who created those fabrication, it has to be me to see through the fabrication. I may not be aware that fabrication is created, but yet that is untrue as all intentions are my own choice, made from past experiences.
In truth that is all about the spiritual journey – the journey of undoing all the lies that I have done upon myself. This is the most important journey compared to any other journeys, as others are simply a recycle of repetitive event, made to be seen as new.
Redemption is not a salvation from sin. Neither is it a wrong that I have to rectify. Redemption is simply an admission or recognition of error that I am now seeing. There is no one to turn to to redeem, except myself. There is no one to confess, except myself. Each recognition redeems me back to truth. No one, except myself can walk through my own door. Neither can I help you to walk through your door. I can point but you have to do the walk.
Only when I come to peace with my own tidings can I come to peace with the world as the world is my true reflection. So long as I see the world as separated from me, I will be seemingly separated from Truth. I am my own self, totally immersed in the game of hide and seek, where I am the seeker and also the hider. Where there is no hider there is no necessity for a seeker. The game is constantly in vain, where there is no loser or winner, except an illusion.
Forgiving others is forgiving myself. Forgiveness is not about something wrong put into right. Forgiveness arises from right understanding seeing all errors as my own. For that I can’t forgive you for there is no reason to – not that I do not want to forgive you but that it is an error of my part to see you as wrong. Forgiveness is about seeing falseness as falseness and for that Truth comes into being.
I can still play the game of false forgiveness, seeing wrongness in you that I am in the position to forgive you. But what has my forgiving you got to do with your own forgiveness except to create falseness in you, not to mention in myself too.
J said, “If a blind person leads a blind person, both of them will fall into a hole.”
– Gospel of Thomas
My journey is of utmost important – I have to be “selfishly selfless” to see my own shortcomings – not from the space of wrong or right but from the space of understanding – recognizing the error that I have overlooked. It is to turn what needs to be overturned. To disclose what has been closed. To understand what has been misunderstood. Only when I see myself thoroughly inside out, being totally truthful to myself, am I able see the fabrications that blocks me from the Truth.
That is all is needed from myself, for myself.