Return from the Journey

Cobweb merely a cobweb
until object contact
and a story told
and ends
awaiting another again.

Mind merely a mind
until object contact
and a story told
and ends
awaiting another
again
and again.

Hence continue it has
and ending never was
for beginning forgotten
until the cause is known
hence the effect understood.

And undoing begins
of what just got messed up
ignorance the cause
delusion the effect.

Awareness has to step in
with effort balanced
of effortless effort
in stillness
wisdom understood
how it came to be
and its end ensured.

Awakened and Awakened to Truth

The mind does not know what it does not know and only knows what it know. Out of both it knows – it knows that it does not know and knows that it knows. Hence if there are no new information coming into the mind, it only knows according to what it has in the past, the storage of all past experiences and knowledge. And hence a person operates in a very limiting way, overseeing what may be obvious to another, but not to him.

There are no limits to acquiring knowledge in the world. In fact the mind, has infinite capacity to store data – limitless will be the word, unlike computers where there is constantly a limit, though throughout the year it has move bigger from bytes to kilobytes, to megabytes, to gigabytes, and now terabytes. It will be impossible to catch up with what the mind can do since the mind is the forerunner of human activities, and yet there is so little understanding of its existence. It has been said that we use up only a very small percentage of what the brain cells can store.

There are certain knowledge that are helpful to our wellbeing and there are many that are not. But of both, they are limited to the world. Limited in the sense that it does not bring you beyond the world. World not in the sense of earth, but the perspective of who we think we are. I am a man, a father, an engineer, a politician – these are merely roles. When all these roles are stripped what is left is simply a body, left with a bundle of mind stuff – knowledge and information again. That is all it is. So, what?

Well, don’t you want to know what this mind is all about, with all its stuff in it? Well, many are not keen at all, and yet there are still others who do not even bother about it. Of course it is not necessary to know, but one thing is for sure – if we do not know the mind we are having, we are only carrying it along in ignorance, hence not knowing what the mind will randomly bring us into. Have you seen an insane person? Have you seen a seriously troubled person who opted for suicide instead of life? Have you seen an extremely happy go lucky guy who never plans and has much to live, and yet you are bounded with worries albeit with much riches but still find life a struggle? And even if you are not rich you may also find that you have other real stuffs to deal with, like health issues or even relationship interaction? Waking up each day is like an open battle field, or a desert – you do not really know what can come up next – you are simply vulnerable to casualties and triggers of what the world is giving you, each moment.

Have you not ponder why the huge variation of emotions? And why ancient feelings keep repeating themselves and you just detest when they arise? Yet, you do not know how to deal with them except to shun them away one more time or make another a scapegoat? Well, if you do not have these, then I will congratulate you – as you have yet to be awakened to these stuffs yet – and even if you know about it, you have yet to question seriously why the need to struggle. And if you approved what I have just rattled, congrats to you too as you are starting to see the truth of your mind – it will be a beginning of a series of soul searching that will lead you to further Truth. And I do really wish you the best, as this direction is a huge playing field of more than what you can imagine. Welcome!

How Can this Be Ever Possible?

Belief is strange. When you believe you make it real. What was not originally true, becomes true to you, simply because you believed in it. When you don’t believe, it is also a belief, and hence you can never escape from it. And what do you believe? Views and ideas.

You believe you are thin or fat, or skinny, or stupid, or clever, whatsoever. Do they really exist? No, except in ignorance – when you ignore the obvious, that it is simply a meaning you give to things which has no meaning. Like a label, it was done for convenience, for identification and yet the identification becomes real, as real as you become that.

Instead of identification of “woman”,’ for convenience of differentiation, you become woman. Identification makes what is not, is. The whole existence is a joke, of mere identification, and yet identification breeds, creating separations and meanings and hence individuals, objects and meanings are born.

“I”, was merely to identify, an expression of convenience and not as a means to make it real, and yet, and yet, when belief sets in, identification becomes real. From “I”, “I am” exists and “I am” with all its ideas becomes who you are. “Fat” is just an idea, an identification. So when “I am” is placed together with “fat”, with a little belief, hey presto! “I am fat” comes alive!

Belief is merely an act of ignorance, just as realization is an act of wisdom. Realization makes certainty and hence cannot believe. Believe is merely a temporary hold to what doubt is calling to do. Where there is doubt, there can be no certainty. Any act of uncertainty looms ignorance, or ego.

When realization takes on more and more space in the mind, belief and doubt naturally diminishes, weakening the “I” further and what is left a bit is the final frontier – the “I” – the one that makes everything unreal as real. It is belief versus realization, and the more awareness is applied, the more observation is given to this “I” which in due time, through much investigation and understanding, the whole entire “I” is exposed – the veil of illusion lifted by wisdom, showing the true face of “I”, except but an idea.

What a comedy! What a joke! There was nothing in existence since the beginning of time, and hence existence was not even real! Indeed strange how this came to be, from unreal, reality comes to be. It never happened at all, and yet the whole episode of unreal reality took on a dimension of such realness that the world is formed and with it, heaven and hell created, past and future came to be, birth and death existed, together will all its rebirth and suffering. How wonderful this whole setup of illusion is – deluding no one and yet because of “someone” delusion exists.

What to hold on,
what to resist,
as all are merely unreal?

For not seeing this reality
you held
you resisted
and the dream persists.

Indeed a difficult task
to realize
and yet realization
is possible.

Phew!
what a nightmare.