Month: July 2012

Hence, when you touch the so-called floor, that meaning “floor” is not what your touch can do for you. That meaning is a separate function given by perception. You either only touch hard or soft – you don’t touch “floor”. At that point of of experience what you experienced is touch+meaning, or more accurately touch+perception. If until now you get where I am leading you, you will start to realize what it means by thoughts make projections real. When you see what your legs are touching on, the meaning “floor” is not “out there” underneath your foot. It has never left the consciousness where that idea came from – it remains in the consciousness as a momentary thought – but you don’t realize that in your daily seeing. Your thought projects it out and makes you think there is an outside – there a “floor” – it is just a meaning or a label from the mind, in the mind, of the mind – all done by the grace of perception. What about “chicken”? Ha ha. Its all in your head, so to speak.

The someone “out there” that “left you” is simply an idea, a meaning of a memory flood of perception. Perception churns juicy glamourous storylines out of each moment of idea and that is what you have to face – over and over again, thinking it has something to do with out there. No one left, no one came except seeing. A little out of the function of seeing, is the beginning of your story – a nightmare, a happy dream, whatever. You have to experience those meanings trapped within you since beginning of time until you get awakened by it. Betrayal? Reflect upon it. Hurt? Look into the abyss of your consciousness – you will see the beginning and the end of your problem. If you don’t see that, then forgiveness meaning is necessary – but the blatant truth is this: forgive others for the wrong they have not done (ACIM). And this brings you back to your very doorstep. You have to open that door alone, all by yourself, only to realize Love, stripped from all meanings, is all that is. Until then, “Love” is just a sweet idea of perception, a meaningless meaning.

My inner journey matters to me dearly. Your inner journey matters to you only. Until we realize that we never met – we are merely meeting ourselves, over and over again, life after life – if ever there is such a meaning. When we realized, awakened, we meet with love, with peace, with compassion, not for the sake of the world, but for our own and with that I see you from that light and you will see me who I am, in the mirror of your own mind.

Only then the Kingdom can be experienced on this earthy temporal plane, albeit still just an illusion…

Our hearts tell a thousand stories, if not countless. Not the physical organ but the metaphysical part of it where all our mental activities resides. Where our heart is, is where consciousness lies. Within this consciousness springs amazing motivation, intention and action which probably on the surface looks similar but on deeper probe reveals a great massive of ideas behind the act.

As simple as generosity – what motivates act of generosity? Even the word “generous” reveals a deep meaning of an act that comes from wholeheartedness rather than from a restriction of conditions. One can do generosity from fear – having in mind that we will be punished if we are not generous enough. This kind of mentality can stem from childhood learning where an adult of fear-based mentality prone to instil fear or guilt on a child to inculcate generosity. It has the do or be punished concept where one does it not because of self willingness but rather from “someone” watching over. Many of our self-restraint actions come from that fear rather than from personal responsibility or wisdom.

Another person can be generous because of the meaning of cause and effect – that good will begets good. There is nothing wrong with this mentality except that it has also fear driven ideas behind it. On the other end of extreme this mentality also promotes greed – the wanting to acquire more in the future, hence more good should be done now. It does not come from wholeheartedness in seeing that the very act of giving or generosity is already a blessing itself as it brings joy to the provider and also the receipient.

Yet there is another type of individual whose act of generosity is simply to reduce and ultimately to transcend the illusionary meaning of ownership. In reality, nothing physical can ever belong to us except our meaning of ownership over it. That reminds me of a story of the Buddha with his attendant Ananda passing by two peasants (pheasant is a type of bird) arguing over a little plot of land and the Buddha upon passing by smiled lightly which caught Ananda’s attention. Upon asking what the smile is about, the Buddha expressed the delusion of ownership one can project onto a land.

This type of motivation is neither from fear or greed but from clear comprehension of the illusion of grasping an ignorant mind. It is a movement of ownership or attachment to freedom. The word generosity is simply a word but the implication behind the act is incomprehensibly unimaginable as when we do not inch our notice over the mind, each act can be motivated from selfish gain or guilt. It is like a tip of an iceberg where the massiveness below is not known. The law of nature is that what goes out will come back and hence our unwatched motivation will exactly present us back with results that we may not be pleased, either in the immediate now or future. Right information leading to right view is necessary to bring our act to purity, untainted by self-cherishing thoughts. Only then the actual spirit of spirituality begins.

As you close your eyes and try to know yourself, not through thinking or seeking further than what is already here, you will sense a presence of “you” – the one that you are very familiar with. That “one” can only be known by you and felt by you. That “you” is actually a mental construct of ideas – a false self that exists fed by ideas. So long as ideas exist, you can be sure “you” have to be around. In fact, existence can only continues because of ideas.

If you visualize yourself as a form, you can be sure that form in your mind are kept intact by ideas. Just as cells keeps the body intact, ideas keep identity continuing. Ideas or views are fundamentally egoistic as it helps to reaffirm the existence of identity, making the self more real to each moment. Ideas are multidimensional in operation as it is not simply one or two ideas to each moment, rather a complexity of uncountable conditionings of ideas that brings about the realness of who we think we are.

Take for example “table”. The letters t-a-b-l-e is a concept, an idea that has a sound with it. Even each alphabet, “t”, “a”, “b”, “l”, “e” is a concept of its own, having its unique pronunciation sound. Then comes the meaning of table – to mean a shape that is useful for eating, writing, etc. Can you imagine in just a word alone, multiple levels of ideas are existing within it. What about when the word “table” is being put into a sentence. It is impossible to imagine the massiveness of ideas that construct the entire meaning of that sentence. Thus when we think of something, though only for a second or two, that momentary thought has unknown supportive ideas behind it.

Consider the number of years we have lived, the number of months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds – you can now understand how the present idea of who “you” are came to be. There is no permanent entity within it except a continuum of ideas and views. They are seamless and unbroken streams of consciousness perpetuating every moment and thus there is this sense that “you” are permanent, yet it is merely an illusion created by conditioning held fast together by grasping or clinging. Just as the beads in a rosary are held together by a string, clinging holds ideas together and create an illusion of identity making the “you” very real and solid. Behind it all, they are merely a facade of emptiness, devoid of meaning and identity. Yet that emptiness is not empty per se as it is neither a space or not a space – both are merely concepts born from ideas – thus each meaning given to it has not at all transcend what could be possibly beyond the understanding of consciousness. In the same manner, what is beyond the mind or consciousness is neither form nor formless, as both are also conceptual construct of the mind that experiences it.

It is not farfetched to say mind is the ego itself. Yet it is also not entirely true, for to realize the potential of what is beyond the mind, an extra ingredient that must be beyond ego must first arise within the mind so as to enable the initiating of that path. That extra ingredient when manifesting itself in the mind will come in a form of information and from there a new view is created. It is no doubt another view, another idea, yet that bit of information is unique in the sense that it has the capacity of undoing the construction of ego, slowly but surely breaking down the self-cherished meaning of identity.  It has the effect of nullifying the existence of ego in a gradual way, only when this beginning information is supported by your own wisdom, having the gut feeling that this is the way out of these dreams of ideas.