Blessed Encounter

of blessed Sufis
of tombs where what needs to be done
have fully being accomplished
of end of journey where no return is so clear
of renunciates steep in silence and inner search
of teachings flavored with love and peace
of a life so well worth respecting
of a journey praised even by the gods
of witness a path worth following
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as I stayed in stillness
of a Master well revered
whose tomb of the Sufi laid in rest
I am being transported to a memory
of another great Master
whose days were numbered
seated at the hospital bed
where eyes met me with penetrative clarity
and in that moment
it seems, there was only one meeting
of great silence and great clarity
of merging of peace never before felt
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here I am with no preconceived ideas
being in reverence
a merging occurred
an experience of mind
whose cankers seems to have finally overcome
won in battled that never was
returned back to the Unconditioned
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waking up at dawn
a sense of serenity filled the air
where inner silence takes precedent
immerse in sweetness of peace
of love that has no object
but simply Beloved, not even the Lover
and for a moment entralled by the hot air balloons
floating up to the sky in uncountable numbers
a reminisce of freedom away from the cankers
never returning again to the illusion
of the world
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Cappadocia, TURKEY
25 July 2012

Where Money seems (not) to be the Issue

When it comes to money matter, the importance one gives to it is not the form it takes, nor is it the denomination. Not even, strangely, the value attached to each note or coin, but rather the value one gives to it. I may not entirely represent everyone’s perception over this subject, but one thing I can be sure of is that, the consciousness, a universal nature of its own, can be seen, explored and understood from an angle where everyone may be familiar with, albeit unknown to his or her own experience at that moment, until awakened to it.

As we explore and understand deeply our relationships with any objects of the world, be it a relationship with another fellow human, or a relationship with our career, money, health or materials like house, car, phone etc, we are looking at a common ground how our own consciousness is dealing with it. Our attention of most time is towards the object of consciousness rather than the consciousness itself. “Consciousness” in this context is the mind itself, the knowing mechanism whose function is to keep contacting with objects, having objects as its own knowing, thus creating what it knows of a reality out of it. In other words, mind and the object which it latches onto, becomes an inner impression of perception we are all living with, albeit our entire lives.

One can say object of the mind is what that is known by the mind. Thus, to each specific moment of experience, it will be true to say the only experience there is, is the knowing mind, or consciousness, and the object or known by the mind.

experience = mind in contact with object = knowing and what is known

The word “object” denotes the inability to know itself except known by the mind. When our consciousness comes into contact with any object, without exception, which includes another mind, that object which our mind picks up does not has the capacity of knowing itself. Strange as it may sound, the object that the mind latches on, is, but an impression, of its own perception. Knowing mind and perception comes together in unison, with feeling as its effect, thus making what comes into contact merely an object of impression and relatively, an experience.

In other words, the mind cannot fully or truly know what is outside, except its own meaning given to it. Thus, I cannot really know you except my mind’s meaning of you. The meaning my mind gives to you is all that is, within my sphere of experience, sad to say, of each moment. I only experience what my mind is doing, not you, not anyone for that matter, for the mind that I have is merely a projection tool, like the metaphor of a spectacle where the image of clearness or blurriness stands at its mercy.

What my mind has when I see you, is what I am experiencing about you – I don’t experience you all the time except my mind experience. If my mind has a peculiar programming of beliefs, I will see you in the eyes of that belief. I cannot see you other than that without my mind coming into picture as seeing will not have taken place at all – for “seeing” is the mind itself! Bizarre isn’t it? In brief, I am already-always witnessing the mind ALL the time, without my knowledge. Because the mind is a power tool of projection, hence I thought what I see is outside me – it is a big time conspiracy! It is the same for all the senses that I am experiencing.

So I am subjected to the mind’s game all the time. Hence, if you are one of those hungering for money which the mind is making you to experience, you would have missed the point of what it is at that moment. You think it is money that you want. And you think it is the value of money that is what attracts you. And so you keep chasing after it, scheming, planning, conspiring how to get closer to more money – all these are done real time of the mind, from the mind, by the mind and not to mention, in the mind, too. All these motivations depends on what programming your mind has. The value of the mind, is the value you see on money, not the value of money itself. Even that is what the mind gives! Hence it is a game of self-cherishing, self-fulfilling, self-perpetrator, in a loop upon loops, strangling its own agenda. Apply these to the way you relate to your relationship. Big time!

Thus my journey, or your journey, is only one – to be awakened to the subjugation of the incessant play of the mind game. Not that the world is to be avoided, for that is impossible, as the world is the mind itself. Neither is it to stop doing anything but to just be a bare witness to the mind – to be awake to each relationship between the mind and any object apparently outside of itself; be it money, career, or anyone for that matter. When you are awake to the mind, witnessing the mind, within each now, the past or future is totally irrelevant, even unreal to you. That witness, that wakefulness is your closeness to what many have awakened to. You may call it God, Love, Enlightenment, whatever. Let not those concepts blind you but lead you to a direction you can finally arrive at on and of your own.

The worth you give to this is worth many more times than the worth you give to money or relationship, for when you resolve the unresolved, you resolve everything that is in your life.

Perception: Disorder Syndrome

I think you are physically here
I’ve got it all wrong
I think you’ve left me
I’ve got it wrong too
you were neither here nor there
neither present nor have left
Except storylines churned out by the mind
of clever perception twisting reality

I think I am here
I’ve got it wrong too
I think I can one day die
I’ve got it seriously wrong
I think I have to be reborn
I’ve got the meaning wrong
for
if I am not here
not to mention there
where then is Now
with all its meanings of Past and Future
cleverly scripted by perception
of deception made real?

I never lived nor died
never conversed, never met
never born, never aged
never waited, never slept
never, never, never met the world
except the meaning of world within
even that is not true
except orchestrated by perception
played silently
with no one watching
no one cheering
no one clapping
no one crying
no one..
not even one, here,
observing
except sculpted cleverly by perception

no thoughts to shoot
no ideas to remove
no beliefs to burn
no hate to churn
no anger to vent
except to witness
equanimously
without a witness within
simply
witness doing its work
recognizing, realizing, awakening

Until then,
I see you
I see myself
I am here, you are there
you will leave
I will be lonely
I will feel betrayed
I will feel grief
I will, I will, I will
whatever,
… remember…
meaninglessly meaningful