The stuff running in the mind equates to water running in a great river – incomprehensibly timeless and infinite. Imagine you are part of the water, unknowingly flowing together with it as long as you could ever remembered, like a dream, until one such day that you are awakened by a moment of calling to this unceasing flow and realize the dire need to get out of it.
Imagine what will be the feeling like when you realized that the uncontrollable flow is not your birth place and you have long been unconsciously drawn into this force and lived with it as if it was your very own life? This moment of realization begins the journey of undoing, of coming back into your senses and realized that you are been played rather than you are playing, you are been lived rather than you are living, you are been dreamed rather than you are dreaming, you are been done rather than you are doing.
This awakening sets the momentum of questioning who you really are, and starts the irreversible journey of self inquiry.
So long as one is unawakened to this dream, birth and death is an integral notion of this reality. This fabricated dream or nightmare has all the myriads of experiences one can ever phantom from seemingly mundane happiness to sadness, in short, the delusion of duality or separation.
The followers said to J [Yeshua], ” Tell us how our end will be.” He said, “Have you discovered the beginning, then, so that you are seeking the end? For where the beginning is, the end will be. Fortunate is the one who stands at the beginning: That one will know the end and will not taste death.” (Your Immortal Reality – How to Break the Cycle of Birth & Death, Gary R. Renard)
To see the end of my pain is to see how it came about. And “how it came about” or “beginning” is not about the past but the NOW. It is about the immediate unquestioned thought that is causing my pain now. “He should not do that to me” – with this thought I feel the pain. My thought is the beginning and the pain is the follow up result.
What if I do not have that thought? Will I experience the pain?
There is no way I could control the thought of it arising but I have a choice to question it.
Which is more real to me – “He should not do that to me” or “He is doing exactly what he is doing”? How I perceive it becomes my reality. “Should” or “should not” is in reference to me. I can’t use “should” or “should not” without the “me” being around.
Am I seeing exactly what is happening in the world or am I creating a figment of an imagination or a story revolving around me? So long as “I am” is the center circumference of things around me, I will surely take possession of it as mine for I am the creator of that circumference. And thus the story I create becomes real to me and thus the beginning of my nightmare…