I am not upset for the reason I think it is

Wisdom don’t see anger as anger. Wisdom learn to understand anger. When there is understanding there is no reason for anger to exist. When anger is understood, anger ceases. This is the path to undoing the ego.

I cannot get rid of ego except to see the nature of its veil. Each time when I try to get rid of ego, I am strengthening the grip of ego. When I learn to understand the nature of ego, ego releases me. The journey of Truth is not a journey of making things right, but to see things right in its own nature. When nature is acknowledge in its own birthplace, Truth reveals itself. Ego is not bad or wrong. Ego has its own nature and thus is part of Nature itself.

Like a dog chasing after its own tail, Ego cannot be separated from me, no matter how hard I try to push it away or try fixing it. By doing I am increasing the ego. By being I am understanding the Ego.  I can’t tell someone about the Truth except to share what I know about the Truth. For when I am not ready for the Truth, no one can force that Truth unto me. Neither can someone convert me except myself converting myself. I am the creator and also the uncreator. What I create unconsciously I have to uncreate consciously. That is my responsibility.

My jealousy has nothing to do with the person I target, though the ego thinks it is so. My upset is also not the reason I think it is. Every experience, whatever extend it may be, is pointing back to me.  Life is not what is out there for me to experience, but what is in here that arises. All the feelings and thoughts about life is Life itself. There is no separation. There is no world except experiences. The ball is always back on my court – there is no other court other than here. I can never be anywhere else except where I am. Without “I” where is Life? Where is the meaning of “you”?

I am you. Even that is untrue, except an idea, a thought. When idea appear, opposite follows. Where there is “I” there is surely “you”. If we are one, we are also two or many as one implies everything coming together. There is no oneness without “twoness”. Inside and outside are all ideas. Ideas set up conditions and in that condition stories appear. Undoing brings condition to an end, and thus the unconditioned. Ideas, views or believes are all the same.

I can’t removed ideas as there is nothing to remove. Can I remove dream or the dream is removed from me when I come into wakefulness? “A tiny mad idea” is an appropriate word used in A Course in Miracle to depict the beginning of illusion.

You are free to believe what you choose, and what you do attests to what you believe.
– A Course in Miracles

4 Replies to “I am not upset for the reason I think it is”

  1. To arrange little pieces of building blocks, from the bottom till the top, as high as it gets, require great patience, perseverence, great care like walking on a tight rope. One little mistake, the whole thing tumbles down. Pieces scattered everywhere, not so easy to recollect.

    It seems very easy to get upset, angry, even giving up the whole idea of building the blocks again after tumbling many times because of a simple mistake which many at a time, not even intended.

    Is there a limit to discover anything?

  2. There is no limit to discovering anything. In truth there are only six things to discover which is narrowed down to one. What six things? The six senses. Everything in the world is recycled, as Yeshua puts it. Your senses is picking it up again and again. Your senses is your mind, thus the one thing that needs to be address. Mind is the forerunner of all. There is no tumbling as each every mistake is a opportunity for growth, if one you are willing to discover what lesson is there.

  3. Whatever you experience of the world is your perception and thus it is you. Whenever you see someone you are seen it from your perception and thus what you see is your own perception.
    A Course in Miracles can be found in Kinokuniya. A very profound book with not-so-easy to understand text. Supposedly to be the voice of Jesus. The explanation of the mind in the book is pretty interesting.

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