Strange Clinging On

It is rather strange how the mind works, or rather how this world is governed by opposites. Not that the opposites are two different things occurring at a different moment, but rather, they are actually the same thing, occurring simultaneously, at the same moment, except only one can be experienced at one time. In other words, both are simply the same thing seen from different perspective, as in the phrase opposite sides of the same coin.

If I like someone, I am already disliking the person at the same time. Insane isn’t it? You may hold in disbelief how this can be true until you probe further how the mechanics of the mind works. By nature everything is in constant change, irrelevant the things we see seem not to change, like any object that is within our sight. At the molecular level, everything is changing ceaselessly but since our sight does not have the capability, or rather has not been trained to see at that speed, everything seems to exist in permanency.

Not just the objects of the world is changing, even the mind is changing quicker than we can ever perceive. Imagine the fickleness in our choices or the change of mind in our decisions – they are tell-tales signs how fluctuating the mind is. Look for anything in the world that is permanent and what you get is impermanence. That impermanence is the only permanence, except changing all the time.

Now if this is truly your understanding, not a kind of whimsy thinking, but an actual realization, you will likely find something pretty strange, as there is no such thing such as “like”; as “to like” already implies there is something permanent there for you to hold on to, and that permanency may mean briefly to you. It will be easier to understand through the model of subject and object principle. If both object and subject is changing all the time, like the spokes of a moving wheel in tangent with the ground it is constantly touching, where can there be a possibility of one moment of time where a point of the wheel is in constant touch with the same position of the ground, unless the wheel is not moving, which cannot be the case, since everything is changing ceaselessly. Clinging on to an experience, is hence an illusion.

Now here lies the irony – we don’t need to hold on to anything if we knew things are not going to change. For instance, do you need to hold on to your breath, if you already know air is constantly in supply for you to breathe? It is because we realize the nature of change that we want to hold on to it! Isn’t it strange? It is like we are not accepting what we already know and we try as hard as we can to hold on to it, as if trying to proof nature is wrong. Kind of insane, isn’t it?

Hence when I like you, somewhere deep inside, I dislike you for not being able for me to hold on to you. Of course, ultimately there is really nothing out there that we get in contact with, except all playing up in our mind. How strange!

So don’t be surprised, behind special love, there is already special hate – just nature working its way out to balance the equation of illusion!

The Self Transgressed

What is Nature?

Nature is not
the trees
or the forest
or the rivers
or the wind
but the natural occurrences
existing in them.

Do you not see
the trees have their own way of existence
and also the forest
and the rivers
and the wind?

What about then the earth
the planets
the solar systems
and the universe?

Surely nature too is taking place
in each
placing order
in their existence.

If the entire system
has its own way of working
surely nature is playing out
in every animal
in insects
in plants
and also minerals.

And do you too not consider
that this “I”
which refers to a personality
is also part of nature
running its own sets of conditioning?

The heart beating
blood circulating
kidney functioning
every organ running in perfect harmony
and cells and tissues replacing
do “you” have a say in it?
or simply nature taking place?

Observe your mind
and surely you will come to realize.

Nature too is taking place in you
for you can’t choose to be happy
as and when you wish
or choose not to be angry
or not to be sleepy

Forget about control
forget about chasing those emotions
for it only enhances the self
making nature seems redundant
as you are only going against the force
which will surely catch up with you
the very moment you transgress.

listen to the flow deeply
in your very own views
and you will find how nature
is moulding you
from who you were
to who you are
and who you will be.

Look at the patterns of the forces
and you will learn
each result has its own set of causes
as that is how Nature works
and as you apply the causes
hence each result follows.

Only then will you live in freedom
conforming to the Nature of the world
without transgressing the world
with the Self transgressed.

Observing Changes the World

It is views that make us look at things differently from each other, and it is views that create conflict among mankind. Closer to home, it is views that trap us in our own mental bondage and it is again views that lead us out of the bondage to freedom. Views are born from mind, so is freedom and bondage too. If all stems from mind, surely the way to work around it also has to come from the mind.

Hence, the need to be aware, or mindful. It is awareness that brings one to be in touch with the mind, to be in the know of what the mind is already doing. And to watch the mind is a pretty kind of tricky work as it is not something tangible that you can anchor yourself in. So you need to know first the mechanism of what the mind is. Just as to know a thief, you have first to recognize what it takes to be a thief. So what is mind’s ability? Think, feel, imagine, know, and many more functions falls under the category of mind. Each time when any of the functions is being done in your experience, can you recognize it is the mind working? Rarely. Instead, we think it was “me” or “I” doing. If you keep acknowledging that it is the mind which is doing its work all the time, you will come to recognize that the mind has a life of its own, as if nature is working in you.

Similarly when seeing is taking place, can you also acknowledge that the function of seeing is taking place? In due time, through silent observation you will come to realize that seeing takes place, without the need to look, or hearing is already taking place, without the “you” needing to listen. You will then realize that there is a strange set of nature taking place in you, the so-called mind and body processes. Both mind and body seem to have a life of its own, like any nature. They move and work on their own accord, and in their own unique ways, without needing you to interfere in it.

When you learn to observe every minute occurrence that is happening in your mind and body, first by acknowledge what it is doing, while it is doing it, you will come to feel as if you are now being put as a third party watching “yourself”. But yet in “yourself” you will find that there is no self there, except nature working out its own. By observing, your view about yourself changes. And this can only occur when you don’t take what is happening for granted, but to recognize what is already occurring while it is occurring. Being an observer to what is, you become a silent witness.

And that is what it means by J’s statement – be a passerby – without holding on or identifying to what is here, but instead observe, allowing each experience to come and go. And this view makes a huge impact on how you view your day to day living. You don’t take things as personal anymore as you no longer see the emotion as you, except nature of the mind. Neither do you attach unnecessarily to anything mental or physical, as you find that they are not there for you to hold on to, except as a passing nature. Your perspective and perception changes and you will definitely feel a lot freer than before.

Detachment comes naturally as a result of a certain view, not by making it work through sheer effort. Everything falls into its place naturally, as nature has its own way of working. When we force change by will – obviously by not understanding how nature works – nature is disrupted and that is when imbalance results. It is a price to pay when what is natural turns unnatural.